Monday, February 6, 2012

Husband

My Husband is the man of my dreams.  Ok...when I tell most people this they either roll their eyes or look at me like a giving them a load of horse s**t...or they'll say, "Oh, just you wait - the honeymoon won't last long!"

And I still say, "Honestly, he is the man of my dreams.  He's everything I have ever wanted and needed from a person."

About six years ago I was introduced to, "The Secret."  If you are familiar with the concept behind the law of attraction and have created a vision board before, you know where I'm going with this.  After embracing the law of attraction and fully believing that I can have anything I want in my life if I positively change my thought process, my life started changing...for the better. 

First it changed financially.  I became more financially intelligent and independent.  My goal of becoming a successful business woman became a reality. 

Then, one day I wrote out all the qualities I wanted from a person that I would want to spend the rest of my life with.  At first it seemed impossible...I would read the list and think..."Well, maybe this is too much to ask for."  But, I never changed what I had on that paper.  Instead, I would read this list of qualities regularly...especially on days where I felt I needed more love in my life. 

Life is indeed ironic b/c when you are about to give up hope, settle for less than you deserve or just get pissed, a flower blossoms and gives you hope. 

I held on for one more moment...instead of settling for less and dating men that treated me poorly or lacked security in themselves or were just complete jerks...in my darkest dating moment...my list came to life.

I am writing this for me.  Maybe the reader too...but really for me.  If there ever comes a point in my life where times get tough or there is a lack of passion in my marriage...I will refer to this post..to rethink, remember and relive everything that I ever wanted in a mate. After all, if I want LOVE, I need to continue to put in the labor in order to receive it. 

My Husband deserves my love, I deserve his.

For Me, and Definitely You

Friends...I have some great ones in my life.  Although the one I am thankful for today has been with me for quite a while.  I never had many good friends in high school...in fact I hated high school - the cliques and all the b.s. that came along with it.  Not fitting in b/c of my hair, or my clothes or my personality...I do not want to relive high school.  I was never myself...I never felt confindent about who I was...I never felt comfortable about just being ME.  I can honestly say I only have two good friends that I have kept from high school...the friend that made me feel so good about myself growing up is still in my life today.  She made me feel appreciated...she made me feel pretty...she made me feel talented....wanted.  She made me happy...

She personally has been through thick and thin,  but has always landed strong...like a gymnast, no matter what life throws her way, she can handle it.  There were times I saw her and she would share with me her self-doubt and fears about terrible things...and for some reason I would look at her and think, "You're gonna pull through this...you can do it...I am not afraid...I am hopeful."  I knew in my heart, without a doubt, she would thrive.

And she has survived more of life's challenges than anyone I know... b/c of her drive to LIVE, drive to SURVIVE...drive to LOVE and to be LOVED, she is still here in my life...she is still a great friend and always will be.

Although we don't see each other as much as we'd like, we can always pick up where we left off.  I am sure you can think of a friend like her who has inspired you in your life...but she is special to me b/c during my most depressed time as a teen, she helped me see just how special I was - how special I am.  I hope to continue to support her through life and to always be able to pick up where we left off.

Happy early birthday, fellow Aquarius!